Post by Sirius on Oct 18, 2011 23:02:32 GMT -5
I posting this because I know no one will see it. I need to get this out, and no one wil have to know here. On the off chance Kat, Chels, or Ella sees this, ... well i don't know. So you'll see it. Get over it. But if you are reading this, please post a reply. I'm just curious. I wanna know if anyone else has seen it.
I'm writing this. Typing this because I'm in love with Matt Lowe. I'm head over heels, die for you, think of you all the time, every single song on my ipod is there cause it reminds me of you, you have no idea, no one else hurts me like this in love with Matthew Lowe. And he doesn't love me
So let it rain, let it pour, if he don't love me anymore;
just let it come down on me, let it come down on me;
every word, it hurts, much more than I deserve;
let it come down on me, let it come down on me, let it rain.
He's my best friend. He has been since freshman year. I met him in sixth grade. I was the only one in class that thought his jokes were funny. Me and this this egyptian kid named Omar AhfviaouhdbvfhkLQKJpoihnusiovfdhb (something like that). But Omar moved away after 6th grade.
The summer leading up to freshman year and the entire school year, me and Matt texted non stop. From when we woke up in the morning until one of us fell asleep, and if we woke up in the middle of the night, we'd reply to each other.
I texted Matthew Lowe more that I texted my boyfriend that year. I liked Matt better than I liked my boyfriend. My boyfriend was annoying.
Actually, it was Matt Lowe who made me realize that I just couldn't stand going out with the loser any more. ( I use loser in the fondest way possible. Patrick and I re very good friends and he will actually probably be the person I tell this to in person because he knows how close matthew and I were and he knows wht almost was and he doesn't over react, but doesn't over react. He just happens to be that one loser I dated. In Matthew Lowe's words) On Christmas break Freshman year, I was going to a movie with Matt one day, and a movie with Patrick the next. I was already wary of Patrick, but for the movie with matt i picked out a nice shirt and did my make up nice and make sure my hair looked good, and he showed up like an hour early to wait with me in the lobby. For the movie with Patrick I wore a sweat shirt with my hair in a pony tail, and didn't wait for him in the lobby when he was late. And sitting there in the movie theatre I figured out that I was definitely breaking up with Patrick. I had already known in the back of my mind, but this made it blatantly obvious.
But Matthew had a crush on me all of Freshman year. I didn't know, but he did. And I loved having it like that. Texting me 24/7. He came to the dance with me, we danced, he put his arm around me, and it was sow dance. And best of all, he liked me enough to take my joke seriously. I had told him to brign me back mickey mouse ears from disney land. And I was joking. But he did. With my name monogrammed into the back. And I told him my favorite disney character was eeyore. So he brought me back a stuffed eeyore toy with a santa hat and a scarf and holly on it. And the tail detaches! Like the real Eeyore! There's velcro and a ribbon holding it together, but it's so cool! And I sleep with this Eeyore every night. I hug it when I'm sad, and when I'm happy and when I'm mad, and I treat it the best. The only time I can't hug Eeyore is when Matt's the reason I'm sad. And that's a lot recently.
Last year, sophomore year, we didn't talk as much.
And I didn't like that. I didn't like that at all.
But there was one day I was texting him- actually I had texted him, but he didn't reply until like two hours later, and it was right before a football game. So I told him I was getting ready for a football game. And he told me he was doing nothing. So I was joking. And I told him to come to the football game. And he said he might. And I said no, I was joking and he's like well I still might. And then he told me he couldn't. But I said that was ok, I hadn't expected it anyways. Then we preformed and then at halftime, we were getting our water and snacks, and he was there! And I was so excited! I wanted to kiss him right there. And it was also the first football game we played Bed Intruder cause my excuse to sit on the edge and talk to Matt was that I was holding Noah's music.
And I noticed that the background to his phone was different. So I asked what it was. But he wouldn't show me. And He wouldn't tell me. And I didn't want to pry. So I didn't ask.
And he finally got a facebook. Cause I asked a few more times, but he wouldn't tell me. And then we were going to Florida. And I made my facebook status about it, and he saw it. So he texted me and asked when we were gonna be down there. And I told him our schedule, and that we were gonna be in Busch Gardens on Sunday. And he convinced his parents to let him go to Busch Gardens, along with Universal and Disney land like they already planned.
And he came to busch gardens, and we rode roller coasters and hung out with Patrick and Tyler and Molly and Issac and Matt O'Quinn. And I was sitting on the bus next to Poppy when I fianlly got him to tell me what his background was. At first he wasn't going to tell me. I said "Will you tell me what your background is?"and he said something along the lines of "uh...look! A purple hippo climbing a tree!" And I played along, then told him something and he finally just said "my girlfriend." And it came as a shock, but it didn't hurt, because I was happy. And I had a crush on someone else. And because he was coming to busch gardens. And because Poppy was sitting next to me and was laughing and making sure that I wasn't gonna burst into tears. And I said "no, he's just a friend" "just a friend?" "just a friend". Then he showed me the pic on his phone while we were waiting in line for a roller coaster and it was a girl we had gone to middle school with. Obviously, he didn't want to talk about it with me.
And when I asked him why he wouldn't tell me, he said he thought I would freak out. I asked him why he thought that and he said he didn't know. Whatever. That was the end of that conversation.
Until we got to Busch Gardens. And that was fun.
He didn't talk to me very much at all while he had a girlfriend. And I didn't like that.
I had heard the girl could be sorta bitchy, and Austin had dated her and he said she cared more about the fact she could say she had a boyfriend, than the actual boyfriend. And I didn't like that, and I was wary of her.
I thought maybe she didn't like him talking to me, and that's why he didn't.
But it still hurt.
Then she went and dumped him on valentine's day!! And he was really really upset, and I didn't like that.
So I tried to talk to him, but he didn't answer.
Actually he texted me that night. And I don;t think I said the right thing. And then I had invited him to the military ball that year, too. But he was upset, and didn't like me, and was shy and the ball was crap anyways. So him being there was what I was looking forward to. But I hated seeing him like that.
That was a stupid night.
But soon he was over her, and summer was fun.
I hated that he was away most of the summer, working at camp boxwell. But I was happy when he texted me. And when we hung out, it was fun. And there was that one time after I got back from mountain top and he got back from camp, he took me to see Super 8. And I was sitting in the car with him, and I go "hey, is this movie supposed scary?" "Yup!" And I looked at him and I was like "I hope you realize that my dad's working and my mom's out of town so I have to spend the next three nights by myself in my house!" And he just laughed at me. And there was one part in the movie where it was really intense and scary and me and him wher both like *gasssssssssppppp for breeeeaaaaathhhhhh* and we just looked at each other and I was like "THREE. NIGHTS." and he poked me and goes "heh heh!"
Then we went to sonic and that was fun. We figured out that the Vanilla Thrilla was a pedophile. Vanilla Thrilla? Really? And he wears a mask, and he says it's even sweeter after dark. EEEWWWW!! "Get in the trash! Where you belong!"
...(came back to write this part 11/14/11)
That was a fun time. And we had many many many more fun times. One time I was out running errand with my mom and he texted me and said he wanted to hang out, and I was like "ok, but you'll have to come pick me up from my mom's hair appointment." I told him to go to the publix in mckay's mill, since that was right next to the hair place, but I saw him before he saw me, so the cars behind him saw some random girl run out of the hair place and jump into his car and he's like "whoa! wait what! You lied! This is not publix!" And he had bought an entire pizza, and had that in the back seat. We drove around for a while, and ended up going to Pinkerton. He got the pizza out and we went to the picnic tables and we both ate a peice (btw I just stared my period so I felt H.O.R.R.I.B.L.E. but i liked hanging out with Matthew, so I sucked it up) then he got up and he went over to a swinging bench, and I just stayed sitting on the picnic table, until he beckoned me over. And we sat there and talked for so long. THere was a dirty sock that he threw at me a couple times, and then he took my phone, and (this is the best part) texted Jess. And told her I was pregnant. And at first she's didn't believe me, but after like two hours of Matt doing his best, she was finally convinced. I was pregnant with Matthew Lowe's child for two hours. And she was freaking out and being a really good friend and offering to go with me when I told my parents, and I took matt's phone and texted her, and was like "so you heard?
" and she was a good person and was offering to do whatever she could for either of us. Then Matt was just out of the blue "Actually this is Matt. JK. 
" and jess was PISSED and I felt like bad person, but it was so funny and so much fun. Probably my favorite memory. Oh, and may I say, he's always been good looking, but the picture I took with his phone, that he made his profile pic
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was amazing. He's hot. Let's get that straight right now.
Like I said, this is one of my most favorite memories.
And I'm not done. But I have to go to bed. Trust me. There's more to come. Even though I know no one will read this....
I'm writing this. Typing this because I'm in love with Matt Lowe. I'm head over heels, die for you, think of you all the time, every single song on my ipod is there cause it reminds me of you, you have no idea, no one else hurts me like this in love with Matthew Lowe. And he doesn't love me
So let it rain, let it pour, if he don't love me anymore;
just let it come down on me, let it come down on me;
every word, it hurts, much more than I deserve;
let it come down on me, let it come down on me, let it rain.
He's my best friend. He has been since freshman year. I met him in sixth grade. I was the only one in class that thought his jokes were funny. Me and this this egyptian kid named Omar AhfviaouhdbvfhkLQKJpoihnusiovfdhb (something like that). But Omar moved away after 6th grade.
The summer leading up to freshman year and the entire school year, me and Matt texted non stop. From when we woke up in the morning until one of us fell asleep, and if we woke up in the middle of the night, we'd reply to each other.
I texted Matthew Lowe more that I texted my boyfriend that year. I liked Matt better than I liked my boyfriend. My boyfriend was annoying.
Actually, it was Matt Lowe who made me realize that I just couldn't stand going out with the loser any more. ( I use loser in the fondest way possible. Patrick and I re very good friends and he will actually probably be the person I tell this to in person because he knows how close matthew and I were and he knows wht almost was and he doesn't over react, but doesn't over react. He just happens to be that one loser I dated. In Matthew Lowe's words) On Christmas break Freshman year, I was going to a movie with Matt one day, and a movie with Patrick the next. I was already wary of Patrick, but for the movie with matt i picked out a nice shirt and did my make up nice and make sure my hair looked good, and he showed up like an hour early to wait with me in the lobby. For the movie with Patrick I wore a sweat shirt with my hair in a pony tail, and didn't wait for him in the lobby when he was late. And sitting there in the movie theatre I figured out that I was definitely breaking up with Patrick. I had already known in the back of my mind, but this made it blatantly obvious.
But Matthew had a crush on me all of Freshman year. I didn't know, but he did. And I loved having it like that. Texting me 24/7. He came to the dance with me, we danced, he put his arm around me, and it was sow dance. And best of all, he liked me enough to take my joke seriously. I had told him to brign me back mickey mouse ears from disney land. And I was joking. But he did. With my name monogrammed into the back. And I told him my favorite disney character was eeyore. So he brought me back a stuffed eeyore toy with a santa hat and a scarf and holly on it. And the tail detaches! Like the real Eeyore! There's velcro and a ribbon holding it together, but it's so cool! And I sleep with this Eeyore every night. I hug it when I'm sad, and when I'm happy and when I'm mad, and I treat it the best. The only time I can't hug Eeyore is when Matt's the reason I'm sad. And that's a lot recently.
Last year, sophomore year, we didn't talk as much.
And I didn't like that. I didn't like that at all.
But there was one day I was texting him- actually I had texted him, but he didn't reply until like two hours later, and it was right before a football game. So I told him I was getting ready for a football game. And he told me he was doing nothing. So I was joking. And I told him to come to the football game. And he said he might. And I said no, I was joking and he's like well I still might. And then he told me he couldn't. But I said that was ok, I hadn't expected it anyways. Then we preformed and then at halftime, we were getting our water and snacks, and he was there! And I was so excited! I wanted to kiss him right there. And it was also the first football game we played Bed Intruder cause my excuse to sit on the edge and talk to Matt was that I was holding Noah's music.
And I noticed that the background to his phone was different. So I asked what it was. But he wouldn't show me. And He wouldn't tell me. And I didn't want to pry. So I didn't ask.
And he finally got a facebook. Cause I asked a few more times, but he wouldn't tell me. And then we were going to Florida. And I made my facebook status about it, and he saw it. So he texted me and asked when we were gonna be down there. And I told him our schedule, and that we were gonna be in Busch Gardens on Sunday. And he convinced his parents to let him go to Busch Gardens, along with Universal and Disney land like they already planned.
And he came to busch gardens, and we rode roller coasters and hung out with Patrick and Tyler and Molly and Issac and Matt O'Quinn. And I was sitting on the bus next to Poppy when I fianlly got him to tell me what his background was. At first he wasn't going to tell me. I said "Will you tell me what your background is?"and he said something along the lines of "uh...look! A purple hippo climbing a tree!" And I played along, then told him something and he finally just said "my girlfriend." And it came as a shock, but it didn't hurt, because I was happy. And I had a crush on someone else. And because he was coming to busch gardens. And because Poppy was sitting next to me and was laughing and making sure that I wasn't gonna burst into tears. And I said "no, he's just a friend" "just a friend?" "just a friend". Then he showed me the pic on his phone while we were waiting in line for a roller coaster and it was a girl we had gone to middle school with. Obviously, he didn't want to talk about it with me.
And when I asked him why he wouldn't tell me, he said he thought I would freak out. I asked him why he thought that and he said he didn't know. Whatever. That was the end of that conversation.
Until we got to Busch Gardens. And that was fun.
He didn't talk to me very much at all while he had a girlfriend. And I didn't like that.
I had heard the girl could be sorta bitchy, and Austin had dated her and he said she cared more about the fact she could say she had a boyfriend, than the actual boyfriend. And I didn't like that, and I was wary of her.
I thought maybe she didn't like him talking to me, and that's why he didn't.
But it still hurt.
Then she went and dumped him on valentine's day!! And he was really really upset, and I didn't like that.
So I tried to talk to him, but he didn't answer.
Actually he texted me that night. And I don;t think I said the right thing. And then I had invited him to the military ball that year, too. But he was upset, and didn't like me, and was shy and the ball was crap anyways. So him being there was what I was looking forward to. But I hated seeing him like that.
That was a stupid night.
But soon he was over her, and summer was fun.
I hated that he was away most of the summer, working at camp boxwell. But I was happy when he texted me. And when we hung out, it was fun. And there was that one time after I got back from mountain top and he got back from camp, he took me to see Super 8. And I was sitting in the car with him, and I go "hey, is this movie supposed scary?" "Yup!" And I looked at him and I was like "I hope you realize that my dad's working and my mom's out of town so I have to spend the next three nights by myself in my house!" And he just laughed at me. And there was one part in the movie where it was really intense and scary and me and him wher both like *gasssssssssppppp for breeeeaaaaathhhhhh* and we just looked at each other and I was like "THREE. NIGHTS." and he poked me and goes "heh heh!"
Then we went to sonic and that was fun. We figured out that the Vanilla Thrilla was a pedophile. Vanilla Thrilla? Really? And he wears a mask, and he says it's even sweeter after dark. EEEWWWW!! "Get in the trash! Where you belong!"
...(came back to write this part 11/14/11)
That was a fun time. And we had many many many more fun times. One time I was out running errand with my mom and he texted me and said he wanted to hang out, and I was like "ok, but you'll have to come pick me up from my mom's hair appointment." I told him to go to the publix in mckay's mill, since that was right next to the hair place, but I saw him before he saw me, so the cars behind him saw some random girl run out of the hair place and jump into his car and he's like "whoa! wait what! You lied! This is not publix!" And he had bought an entire pizza, and had that in the back seat. We drove around for a while, and ended up going to Pinkerton. He got the pizza out and we went to the picnic tables and we both ate a peice (btw I just stared my period so I felt H.O.R.R.I.B.L.E. but i liked hanging out with Matthew, so I sucked it up) then he got up and he went over to a swinging bench, and I just stayed sitting on the picnic table, until he beckoned me over. And we sat there and talked for so long. THere was a dirty sock that he threw at me a couple times, and then he took my phone, and (this is the best part) texted Jess. And told her I was pregnant. And at first she's didn't believe me, but after like two hours of Matt doing his best, she was finally convinced. I was pregnant with Matthew Lowe's child for two hours. And she was freaking out and being a really good friend and offering to go with me when I told my parents, and I took matt's phone and texted her, and was like "so you heard?
" and she was a good person and was offering to do whatever she could for either of us. Then Matt was just out of the blue "Actually this is Matt. JK. 
" and jess was PISSED and I felt like bad person, but it was so funny and so much fun. Probably my favorite memory. Oh, and may I say, he's always been good looking, but the picture I took with his phone, that he made his profile pic a8.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/281699_249901191700374_100000414843942_909045_746863_n.jpg
was amazing. He's hot. Let's get that straight right now.
Like I said, this is one of my most favorite memories.
And I'm not done. But I have to go to bed. Trust me. There's more to come. Even though I know no one will read this....
